…Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.”
-Excerpt from The Awakening, by Sonny Carroll
Today, I consider it all a blessing in disguise. It’s been about 18 years since being diagnosed. I spent 10 years being ill, dealing with it, accepting it and healing from it. Then, I spent the next 8 years rebuilding my life in a new light, with a new perspective in life, a new purpose. I reclaimed my self-worth, confidence and inner strength. A lot has happened. I am healthier and I have never been happier. Getting to where I am today is a blessing, and I will forever be grateful.
Over the years of renewing my life and actually living it, I started doing the things I have always loved. I started dancing and took salsa lessons. I socialized, met people and enjoyed life. I got a job I really loved. I moved again several times but this time, it was by choice. :) I worked with great, admirable people. I started connecting with people that made a difference in my life. I continued my spiritual quest. Then one day, I met someone, who soon became my new husband. He is a blessing and he is my second chance. I am in a different phase in my life; more peaceful, more present…happier! :)
Don't get me wrong though, struggles continue to happen in my life and certain moments trigger my anxiety and depression, but I am in a much better place so I handle things differently. I see challenges today as lessons to be learned from. I see hardships as moments that shall pass. I see difficulties as opportunities to strengthen my faith. It's still not easy. I just have more hope and stronger faith and to this day, I am learning to acknowledge each blessing that comes my way. And I hope this helps you in any way.